This server saved my life.

4 days ago
#28667
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Jaymate
Exiled
142 Posts
Member Since
November 2017
RP Name
Jimmy Owen
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
18 days, 7 hours, 28 minutes and 32 seconds
This server saved my life.

I am 27.

My ex-wife and I have a daughter together, and adopted our son together. They are now both 4 years old.

When we were going through our separation, I found myself lost and miserable. I was self destructive. I got so mad one day from everything spiraling out of my control that I punched some concrete in a moment of overwhelming emotion. That caused me to break my 5th metacarpal in my right hand... my working hand... my games hand.. the hand that I held and carried my children to bed with.. The hand I desperately needed to make sure I could continue to provide.

After learning of the severity of my self-inflicted damage, I was borderline suicidal. Keep in mind that just a few months before this, I was the happiest man with no history of depression or anxiety. I have never had fits of rage, or been one to break down and cry, but I was in a low spot that just really buried me from being able to see the light on the other side.

Having nothing better to do, I searched for a server I could play, ONE HANDED while I recovered. I somehow stumbled upon this server. I decided that it had to be worth a shot... I must admit, I didn't beat the server, or play nearly as long as some of you. In fact, I may have only played this server a week or two.. With that being said, after doing so, I had a new found joy and hope for life. I was able to put behind me the pain and suffering that had been cast over me. I was able to experience other peoples joy and happiness. I was able to see the fruits of my "labor". I relaxed for 5 fucking minutes to this music long enough to realize that I was going to be okay.

After coming to that realization, I turned Garry's Mod off, and I went back to work. It hurt my hand like hell but I was motivated. I stopped feeling so damn sorry for myself, and I became the father I needed to be in that moment, not the weak boy I was behaving as.

Today, I am close friend with my kids mother. We don't fight, or argue, or say hurtful things to each other. We are parents, and friends.

I now have 3 kids. My third child is, wait for it, ALSO 4 YEARS OLD. The woman I am with was going through a very similar situation at the time of my own separation, and we just stumbled in to each others life unexpectedly. We have been in a relationship for a year now, and are very happy together.

Moral of the story, you never know what life holds in store for you, and if I would have given up when all the odds were stacked against me, I wouldn't be where I am today. This silly little server helped me realize that.

Thank you.
4 days ago
#155960
malt | GGS.SX
Philanthropist
349 Posts
Member Since
June 2018
RP Name
Malt Fynafoods
Police Rank
Constable
Total Playtime
18 days, 7 hours, 54 minutes and 40 seconds
Bruhhhhhh

You gonna make me cry :(

We never realize how despite this community being easily toxic, it means so much to us and makes up parts of many of our every day lives, and allows us to escape from real life :)

To that Jimmy, I raise a glass and thanks for your courage!
4 days ago
#155961
Mrpickle
Moderator
121 Posts
Member Since
May 2018
RP Name
Scottie Pog
Police Rank
Constable
Total Playtime
31 days, 1 hours, 7 minutes and 51 seconds
Jaymate
Contributor
129 Posts
Member Since
November 2017
RP Name
Jimmy Meander
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
17 days, 21 hours, 22 minutes and 44 seconds
4 days ago
#155964
lol pog
Honorable
267 Posts
Member Since
February 2017
RP Name
Murray Segeshriun
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
28 days, 4 hours, 35 minutes and 44 seconds
ayo only a spooful
4 days ago
#155966
Collie
Money Pit
1575 Posts
Member Since
November 2018
RP Name
Peter Post
Police Rank
Senior Constable
Total Playtime
50 days, 17 hours, 12 minutes and 49 seconds
"We are parents, and friends."

What a king
4 days ago
#155975
Don't Tel
l Dad ;)
Contributor
44 Posts
Member Since
September 2019
RP Name
Anela Segeshriun
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
11 days, 9 hours, 8 minutes and 4 seconds
https://www.reddit.com/r/copypasta/comments/c6inuo/my_steam_game_review/
posted 1 year ago lmao
yall got fooled lol
4 days ago
#155976
lol pog
Honorable
267 Posts
Member Since
February 2017
RP Name
Murray Segeshriun
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
28 days, 4 hours, 35 minutes and 44 seconds
so hes gonna get perm'd for TOS probably @heavybooooob
4 days ago
#155981
Jaymate
Exiled
148 Posts
Member Since
November 2017
RP Name
Jimmy Owen
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
18 days, 7 hours, 28 minutes and 32 seconds
@anela
Edited
4 days ago
#155983
malt | GGS.SX
Philanthropist
349 Posts
Member Since
June 2018
RP Name
Malt Fynafoods
Police Rank
Constable
Total Playtime
18 days, 7 hours, 54 minutes and 40 seconds
you asshole :(
4 days ago
#155984
lol pog
Honorable
267 Posts
Member Since
February 2017
RP Name
Murray Segeshriun
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
28 days, 4 hours, 35 minutes and 44 seconds
@Jimmy

The TOS
Attention Seeking / Drama Policy

Content for the purpose of creating drama and seeking sympathy / attention will be altered and or destroyed (if possible) at the discretion of staff. Offenders who wish do this though grand exit will be shown the door not to return. We don't want drama on our services and in creating it, offenders will be Exiled.
4 days ago
#155986
Jaymate
Exiled
148 Posts
Member Since
November 2017
RP Name
Jimmy Owen
Police Rank
Not Whitelisted
Total Playtime
18 days, 7 hours, 28 minutes and 32 seconds
who @malt ?